Stories from Hama: Memories of Painter Khaled Al-Khani. Part 3

Lest we forget-31 years (Introduction by OTW)

HAMA-31-MemoriumNearly a year ago, I posted my translation of several segments of the memoir of Khaled Al-Khani, a Syrian painter who lived as a six-year old child the horrors of Hama. Then, I hoped to post all of Khaled’s memoirs, which were originally written by him as eight letters sent to his friends in the early days of the Syrian Revolution, on three installments on 7ee6ab. Until today, i could not  finish translating the third installment because pain, sorrow, and grief, always struck me hard in nearly every sentence. Khaled and I have become good friends, and every time I started working on the last four letters of his, I could not  stop weeping as I  thought of my friend, living the massacre as a child and hearing the horror stories from his neighbors as he grew up, so I stopped.

Today, we enter the thirty-first anniversary of the Assads’ massacre of Hama. It was on this day, thirty-one years, when an abominable group of barbarians invaded a beautiful city on the Orontes river. What happened  next became suppressed in the memory of millions. It was suppressed in the memories of those who knew of the massacre, but remained silent for fear that the Assads may do to them what they have done to the city of Hama, to Khaled’s friends, to his larger than life father, and to our identity as Syrians. Others were merely ashamed of our own complicity in the crimes, whether that was in believing the lies and distortions of Hafez Al-Assad, or in failing to rise up in aid of our sister city, raped as she was.

In less than two months from now, we mark the beginning of the third year of the Syrian Revolution. Much has happened since I posted the second part of Khaled’s memoir. The horrors khaled describes are now common place, for what was done in 1983 in the secrecy of siege has been happening in the open, by the son of the murderous hafez, a foolish entity, that proved to many the existence of filthy genes.

Bashar’s barbarians are not far from his fathers’ and uncle’s. Their crimes are no less horrific as they have demonstrated through countless “leaked tapes”. Residents of the Baroudeyeh district of Hama, who fled to the undulation room in a destroyed mosque, are now joined by their children and relatives from countless Syrian cities and villages. Photos of murdered detainees, tortured to death, starved, burned, mutilated, are now part of our daily lives.

All of this does not belittle the pain that is Hama. And while we mourn her sisters joining her in tragedy at the hand of the murderous sons and nephews of the senior assad thugs, we must also continue to remember Hama. As I wrote in the previous post, what we see today was foretold thirty-one years ago. It is also a warning that this clan must not remain in Syria, should have no future or connection to Syria, and that its heads, its bullies, their partners, and loyalists a swell as their propagandists and publicity prostitutes must face up for their crimes.

Today, while Syrians die or become refugees on hourly basis, many of the perpetrator of Hama’s massacre remain free. Rifaat Al-Assad enjoys his billions all over Europe, Abdel-Halim Khaddam lives safely in the most expensive area of Paris, and many of the junior thugs, are now generals in the barbarian army, not counting the soldiers and petty-officers who have since them  retired. For Hama, then, and for what is happening now in Syria to pass without just punishment is a dishonor not only to Syria, but to humanity as well.

Again, I could not finish translating  all of Khaled’s Memoir. It is still very hard to do. There will be one more. But that is OK, for in having a task like this going incomplete, i continue to remember our dept to Hama, and  the fact that it can never be paid.

Stories from Hama: Memories of Painter Khaled Al-Khani. Part 3

Part 1,  Part 2

11. Life under shelling 150x150.acrylic on canvas

One of Khaled Al-Khani’s 2012 paintings titled: Life under shelling.

When my father slapped me and sent me to join my mother and my brothers and the rest of the residents of the Baroudeyeh neighborhood, it was like he knew that I would never forget the details of the tragedy for as long as I lived. I tell you now, and I swear; I see him today in every martyr among the detainees. I beg your forgiveness. You may find some confusion to this part of my testimony, and you have to excuse me, he is my father.

O’ father, how could you send us to the unknown? What a pain. What went through your heart and mind then?  when your sufferings began to grow.

He was captured in the shelter he went into with my aunt after the army, delayed by some brave young men, later arrived. I know one of these men very well, and he told me how much they suffered from bombardment, and how were they able to delay the savages’ invasion for few days.

My father was arrested with all of the men in the shelter and sent to the ceramic factory. Some of those who were with him told me later that after days of having been with no food and with only rain water to ease their thirst, a few soldiers would come once or twice and throw some bread around asking the people, at gunpoint, to race for the bread in order to amplify our disgrace. There were sheds and cellars in the factory, and as customary, the detainees shared the pain. The cellars were warmer than the sheds, which protected them from the wind, but in the factory yard, a place which became outside universe of humanity, laid killing, maiming, dragging, brutality, teeth pulling, ear and tongue cutting, eyes gouging, and breaking of limbs. Despite all of this, people shared the roles and the pain.

After days of existence in the detention camp, some people began calling my father “Doctor” as a sign of respect and to ease his pain having eased theirs many a time in the past. He repeatedly told them: ”Don’t call me Doctor” because as one of signatories to the city’s intellectuals’ statement sent to the regime calling for democracy and respect for freedom and other human rights, he knew that the regime would not allow any intellectual from our city to survive.  Today, we are calling for our rights again, and we will get them, god willing. One witness told me that my father once chided him for toasting a piece of bread on a makeshift stove and told him to eat it as it is. To date, I could not understand why. Was he concerned about the loss of nutritional value with toasting? or was it the smell, in consideration for the hunger of all of the detainees.

The presence of a physician among the detainees, of whom there were five thousands in this particular detention camp, leaked to the officer.  So, he gathered the detainees in the yard. Then, this senior officer said that they needed a physician, suggesting there was a medical emergency. My father and another doctor adhered to the Hippocratic Oath and answered the call of duty. Little they knew of the planned treachery.  My father and the other doctor were both dragged alive and tortured. They gouged one of my father’s eyes in the midst of his suffering and  one of those who were present told me that my father was on the ground writhing in pain when the soldiers were beating him with their weapons as if they were playing and before he died, the soldiers ganged up him as a pack of wolves. His tribulation and pain lasted for hours. Oh father, what did you feel…? After that, his body, which looked like mine, his face, resembling mine, and his soul, similar those of our today martyrs, was thrown in the yard and later handed to the national hospital, where he remained, with the other martyrs’ , laying at the hospital door. My father’s torture did not end then, for in there, they gouged his other eye, took his identity card and stapled it to his clothes.

One of our relatives was able to retrieve my father’s body. He was buried eyeless.

Today, I swear I never stopped asking for our full rights and for the murderers to receive just punishment. I never stopped, and will never stop until you return to me my father’s eyes to lay them to rest where he is.

I wrote the first few parts of my testimonial while under fear and anxiety from everything and I sent them to you to expose the crimes of this corrupt regime.  God knows, as I was writing, letters of the alphabet abandoned me, and my language did not save me. Sometimes I would search for a letter or a sentence and try to write it down but it would escape as a fugitive does from this tyrannical regime. You have no idea how many a prose I erased out of fear for the safety of people, and how many times I hesitated, stuttered, and cried until I fell down. I swear my crying never stops when I write, and what I write is always forcefully extracted from my memories, which constantly tries to escape into the far and deep corners of my brain.

My father’s corpse was dumped for days among other corpses at the door of the national hospital. Earlier, my father, a non-Baathist, was appointed as a director of the hospital and president of the city’s syndicate of physicians. This was an earlier attempt to signal the regime’s responsiveness to the intellectuals statement and to initiate a dialogue with members of the city’s civil society in the same treacherous tricks being used to out such people by the regime nowadays. We must exercise caution and read the regime’s movements well.

A nurse, who worked with my father when he was the director of the hospital told me that wounded people arrived  to the hospital in an non-slowing acceleration. An incident occurred when a wounded man was brought in  loudly crying out of pain. His cries were so loud to the point where everyone in the hospital heard. He was not the only one crying out of pain, but his voice was the loudest. People who brought him believed, as we all now do, that the cries of pain were the signal to the soldiers who camped at the hospital to finish off the wounded and to assure our complete annihilation.  It was not the treatment to ease the pain that was proportional the the pain of the wounded but the severity of torture awaiting them. The nurse told that the soldiers, accompanied by another nurse who adopted murder with them, opened up the man’s chest while he was writhing and shouting with pain, took out his heart, his blood covering their faces and their military uniforms; until they finally silenced him, forever, as they had thought then. But by god, I am his voice, his pain, and his body, until we honor him as befitting a human. They killed in a celebration of victory over humanity. This is their eternal war. The teller swore that the nurse who identified with the soldiers took out the man’s liver and chewed and spat pieces of it as if god didn’t exist in that place. The woman who told the story remained silent for years about it. Till today, she remains frozen in that place, unable to leave it as she relives repeatedly in her memories the scene. She said that they never asked for the man’s name. They don’t track names. The barbarians don’t know the language of children and women; our language. They know only the language of killing.

Bodies were defaced and disfigured in that hospital. On the walls, they drew with blood and wrote  phrases such as “no god but nation and no prophet but the ba’ath”.  The decapitated heads to express their fear of our mind, or may be so that people remain uncertain about the death of their disappeared beloved, or whether they are among the detainees in the gang’s jails.  This is merely a picture of our psychological torture, which they strove to make chronic up to the present. Until now, doubts remain, and people, heart broken, still yearn for the return of those who went to that place.

It was as if the barbarians were abstracting the Human on a painting dominated by red and adding from the darkness of their hearts to balance their inhuman art. This was their art of painting, sculpting, of cinema and theater, and perhaps of poetry and music, but the  task for narrating was left to me. They excelled over all of those who made contemporary art then, but they forgot that they were killing the human because these are the arts of killing among barbarians. They even performed their own scientific experiments:  intravenous introduction of water and alcohol into the blood of the wounded while they observed what happened. What scientists? They have surpassed the ages. They punctured eardrums, slashed veins and cut productive organs, fingers, and ears. They gouged eyes, and penetrated every orifice with their guns. They used Cyanide on us (I will tell more about it later). They desired god to create us with no ears and no hearts. They desired that god never created us to begin with.

A wounded woman meant more pleasure for them because they can practice more of their arts including the rape of a woman while she is dying or bleeding, or sometimes, being merciful, killing her and then raping her. If she had any jewelry on her, they would extract the jewelry in the most vicious way such as by cutting her hand, or slashing her ear, and more. As they are doing today, then and in that area of my city, they instructed all hospitals not to admit anyone but wounded soldiers, and when no one listened to them, the destroyed all private hospitals. No one escaped their savagery as they looted, ransacked, and destroyed all of the pharmacies in our area.

Hameedo-Pigeons

Commemorating Hameedo’s pigeons. For 31 years, Hameedo and hi pigeons remained part of the artists’ memories of resisting the culture of death of the regime. Hameedo’s insistence on making sure that his pigeons never land in defiance of the soldiers’ bullets was one of the few inspiring things to a six-year old boy living the horrors of the massacre.

Perhaps all of  the survivors from the Boaroudeyeh neighborhood know Hameedo, a mentally disabled young man, who surpassed the murders in intelligence and humanity. Hameedo was there when the massacre of Hama started, and he would never hesitate to declare himself defender of his sacked city. Everyone in the neighborhood knew Hameedo because like a clock, he would release his flocks of pigeons to the sky at sunrise. His voice transcendent,   Hameedo would wake everyone while sending his pigeons off. At sunset, he would sing the sun farewell with his loud voice calling on his flocks to return. A part of the homes and of the place, Hameedo would not stop doing that, even if everyone left. After the barbarians’ night attack on our city, and I don’t really know where he stayed at, but on that morning, while we were in our house, and when bullets flew from all direction,  Hameedo went up to his roof and released his flock and his voice to the sky. His voice mixed with the sound of bullets and the sound of his pigeons was not the usual. It was more like our own sounds. Hameedo’s birds were scared of the bullets as they circled the sky desperately trying to land. Some of them got lost. But not Hameedo, who defied the bullets as his mother was calling him, with his voice being the only voice heard at that moment. We may never understand his feelings, and I think that he did not realize what  he felt, but he stood with his sacked city and may have released his birds to make the barbarian understand his message. What a man? He grew grand in our eyes, freeing himself, and facing the murderers. Ever since that day, I have been trying to reach Hameedo’s heights and to tell you about his struggle, which is unlike any. The soldiers saw Hameedo’s birds and they started sniping them one after the other, but he kept shouting to tell us with his shouts that the barbarians would not refrain from any evil. He did not surrender, and would never allow his pigeons to land on the roof of his house. Some birds landed on other roofs, the rest were killed, but even then, Hameedo did not stop, he went looking for his birds from one roof to the other, enticing them to fly again. He faced the barbarians, and he didn’t hide or surrender to the sound of bullets for he kept that sound out until he was shot by the soldiers, who never understood what emotions are, and never knew what does humanity mean, and never favored it for other creatures.

Hameedo went silent on the roof of his house, but has never been silent in my memories. It is as if he is sending into my soul again what he felt in the wide skies. By god, today, we all feel like Hameedo, who released his weapon of simple humanity to stop the murder. Foretelling before anyone could that the barbarian were here to exterminate all birds,  he departed with his birds to where he desired and left me to carry to your what he wanted for all of you. Where are you now Hameedo? To declare freedom in your own way, you are now eternal in the memories of those surviving residents of the Baroudeyeh. Everyone knew then that Hameedo was flying with his birds towards the sky. He was one of the first martyrs of our neighborhood.

Horses-of-Hama

The residents of Hama’s Baroudeyeh district adored their Arabian Horses. Bestowing their own names on their horses to signify the unique relationship with their Noble horses. The above painting by the artist illustrates the centrality of these horses in their lives.

In the Baroudeyeh, we had horse stables within arabian-styled our homes. All families in our neighborhood had horses and these horses were part of our pride and honor. We never classified our horses as animals, for they carried our names, and in that there was and remains an infinitely clear expression of the nature of the relationship we had with our horses. During  our great escape from the neighborhood, some people remained, but most left. Those who remained told us later what happened to our horses. Before leaving, some men released their horses wanting for them exactly what Hameedo wanted his birds, and that was to stay away from the place, or to fight weapons with his beautiful birds. Many of the fine Arabian bloodstock horses were forced out, in manners we have never done in hundreds of year, a manner that does not at all represent our feelings towards our horses.

Yet, many horses remained, and the barley stores were left opened for them in hope that they can survive. Some believed that they will see their horses again upon their return, but these people did not know that barbarians don’t leave anything behind, and they would not leave our cultural heritage, the habits of our grandfathers, and they knew the symbolism of horses to us.

They did not kill the horses because they knew of their cultural values, and they knew that the loss of our horses will be forever painful to us, which is what they want. None of the survivors tell that they have seen horses among the corpses, because the barbarians have carried the horses to another place. I swear that after the end of the massacre, and the return of those who survived it to the city, the people of my city went looking for their horses as if they were looking for their own children. If any one mentioned that a beautiful horse or mare was seen in another governorate, they would go to investigate whether it was one of our beautiful horses. We never saw any, and did not found an answer until the golden horseman showed up, and then the people of Hama knew to where the horses disappeared. His father was never a horseman, nor was his grandfather. While he may have learned riding with our horses, not everyone understands the language of horses, because it teaches ethics, and it only befits us. Bassel al-assad, you never were a horseman, and this is not how horsemanship is.

To be continued

Part 1

Part 2

Posted on February 2, 2013, in Bashar Al-Assad, Crimes Against Humanity, Hama Massacre, Syria, Syrian Regime Crimes Against Humanity and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 19 Comments.

  1. SYRIAN HAMSTER

    Todya’s regime Massacre in Aleppo

  2. Dear OTW thank you for this third part of Khaled Al-Khani’s memories. I am translating the second part in French and shall go on to this part too.

  3. As change moves fitfully through the Muslim world, a more assertive role for women in that world may be an idea whose time has come. In 2012, the Gallup Center for Muslim Studies reported on a survey conducted in six Arab Spring nations: Bahrain, Egypt, Libya, Syria, Tunisia and Yemen. After the Arab Uprisings: Women on Rights, Religion and Rebuilding reports that majorities of both men and women in those countries support equal legal rights for both genders, support equal access to education, and think women should be able to hold any job they are qualified for.

    … -both men and women-also agreed that any new government measures should be based at least partly on Islamic law.

    If there is to be a new model for women in the Muslim world, it already may exist in the United States, al-Hibri says. “We have a culture which is ideal Islamically in the sense that it is very consistent with our values of justice, equality, treating each other well, and the right of women to work and to be educated,” she says.

    http://www.abajournal.com/magazine/article/walking_the_tightrope_muslim_women/?utm_source=maestro&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=weekly_email

  4. Syrian artist Tammam Azzam has enlisted one of the greatest kisses in art to protest against his country’s suffering in a war watched passively by the outside world.

    Azzam has Photoshopped Gustav Klimt’s painting The Kiss against a war-ravaged (and ancient-looking) Syrian building. The image has gone viral, being rapidly shared around the world.

    Taking that passionate image and putting it on a wall in Syria, Azzam invokes one of the most universal works of art to try and touch international hearts that are OK with ignoring his country’s pain.

    http://www.guardian.co.uk/artanddesign/jonathanjonesblog/2013/feb/04/syria-klimt-kiss-tammam-azzam

  5. http://anniebannie.net/2013/02/06/histoire-de-hama-souvenirs-du-peintre-khaled-al-khani-deuxieme-partie/

    In French the second part; a little difficult translating a translation; may be someone will carry it straight from Arabic to French. I’ll start on the third part very soon.

    Love Tammam Azzam so much.

  6. Dear Annie
    Many thanks. The second part was also very hard. The third was the hardest but I had some editorial flexibility since I was working directly with Khaled this time. So I had consulted with him (in arabic) about some changes that were made, but without changing the spirit of the piece. I believe I may have to edit the second part.

    By the way, you may want to check Khaled’s new website.

    http://www.khaledalkhani.com/

  7. Remembering Ochlik through the Arab Spring

    Ochlik died on assignment last year. He was in a makeshift shelter for journalists in Homs, Syria, when it came under shellfire from Syrian Army forces. He was 28. “Revolutions: Photographs of the Arab Spring by Rémi Ochlik” is both a chronicle of a remarkable moment in recent history and a tribute to the chronicler. It runs at the Art Institute of Boston at Lesley University through Feb. 22, the first anniversary of Ochlik’s death.

    http://bostonglobe.com/arts/theater-art/2013/02/05/review-revolutions-photographs-arab-spring-art-institute-boston/VSlPCamDVsMwRwblZrDOrO/story.html

  8. Al Arabiya participated in the Davos conference in Switzerland recently, organizing a panel discussion on the crisis in Syria and creating a platform for various voices to discuss a possible solution.

    The panel was moderated by Senior Al Arabiya reporter and TV presenter Rima Maktabi and included former chief of Saudi intelligence and brother of the Saudi Foreign minister Prince Turki al-Faisal, Turkey’s foreign minister Ahmet Davutoglu, Gassan Saleme the Dean at The Paris School of International Affairs, Nasser Sami Judah, minister of foreign affairs in Jordan, and Peter Maurer, President of the International Committee of the Red Cross (ICRC).

    The main topics under discussion were the weapons supply and support for the Free Syrian Army (FSA) along with the refugee situation in surrounding countries such as Jordan, Turkey and Lebanon that are on the verge of a serious humanitarian crisis.

    http://english.alarabiya.net/articles/2013/02/07/264926.html

  9. This was posted on Syria Deeply. Lara Setrakian‏: “Very proud and grateful for my @SyriaDeeply team, for creating this innovative #Syria backgrounder on Prezi:
    ====================
    Innovative? Accurate? Syria Backgrounder?
    Simply: nope. Very shallow.

    http://bit.ly/XQMpYP

  10. Dear N.Z.
    Once more, thank you very much for keeping the fort. I could not open the presentation from work. I will look at it from home today.

    Syriadeeply is trying to bring a new perspective on Syria, I will review the presentation, but I would like to ask if you can kindly share with us a little bit more details as to where you see possible improvement.

    I will refrain from making comments until I get the chance to see the perzi presentation. But many thanks for bringing it to the attention of 7ee6anis,

    I am also taking liberty of posting in this comment Tammam’s Kiss. Thank you for noting this work.

    Tammam Azzam's Kiss: an unromantic commentary on the Syrian conflict, The Guardian

  11. This clip is subtitled in Spanish and in it Khaled al Khani tells his story of Hama 82

  12. Dear OTW,
    Absolutely, I owe you and Syria Deeply an explanation.

    Probably my expectations were high.

    The most positive aspect of the presentation is the clarity and simplicity of the message. It is the content that I find problematic.

    In a nutshell, the basics about Syria and Syrians appears to be driven by the US state department, it is in line with their public statements. Characterizing the conflict as sectarian is dangerous “Some of Syria’s religious groups have become bitter enemies. All that makes it harder to end this civil war”. Raising fear about “Islamist” group and their potential control, will only help prolonging the regime brutalities and paralyzing the international community.

    When describing the people of Syria as consisting of “minorities” and a “majority” give the impression as if these two groups are not one entity. No historical emphasis on their co-existence and their shared history was given. ex: places of warships standing side by side, Aramaic the language of Jesus still spoken by both Muslims and Christians, Syrians welcoming refugees from all religious backgrounds and sects throughout history…this is what we Syrians are proud of, this is what differentiate the Syrian culture from other cultures, more than music and food, specially, given the context of the presentation..

    In the end, just want to make sure that my points are not to undermine the great effort and dedication Syria Deeply is working on, to the contrary, i do care for this new website and their efforts.

  13. الدكتور عزمي بشارة

    ما المفاجئ
    أ. تفاجأت من القسوة والاستعداد للتدمير الشامل باستخدام الطائرات والمدفعية والصواريخ ضد المدن. ألم يتفاجأ الناس؟
    ب. هنالك من يقول أن الناس تفاجأوا، لأنه لا أحد يتوقع أن يتعامل بشر مع بشر بهذا الشكل. وهنالك من يدعي العكس، أن الناس توقعوا هذا السلوك الوحشي لأنهم يعرفون نظامهم. ولذلك تردد عدد كبير منهم بالانضمام. فهم يعرفون أن هذا نظام لا يسقط ولا يُصلَح بالمظاهرات وسوف يطلق عليها النار، وأنه مستعد أن يحرق البلد.
    أ. ولكن لم يحصل ذلك من قبل.
    ب. الناس تعرف نموذج حماة. وهنالك نموذج لقصف مدمر من الأرض والجو هو ما تعرضت له غروزني على يد القوات الروسية بإشراف بوتين نفسه. ولكن ليس لدولة كاملة بمدنها، وشعب كامل ثائر. سوف يفشلون طبعا فسوريا ليست دولة عظمى، ونظامها فقد شرعيته، وشعب سورية كله ثائر. ومع ذلك دعك من النقاش اذا كانت همجية النظام مفاجئة. أتدري ما المفاجئ فعلا؟
    أ. ماذا؟
    ب. الشعب السوري. هذا شعب عظيم وبطل. ولا مثيل له.

  14. SYRIAN HAMSTER

    Proud as ever with the military boot over their head. The symbolism of the die-hard loyalists is inescapable. They somehow believe that the boot is out there smashing the revolution, while in reality, all it can do now is to step over their own heads.

  15. ” الراعي و البوطي من عبادة الله الى عبادة الشيطان ، سبحان مغير الاحوال ”

    *Fares Soueid, an official in the March 14 movement, said Rai did a disservice to Christians by associating them with Assad “It is akin to the silence of the Catholic church faced with Nazi atrocities in World War Two.

    *“The visit by Rai should not be placed in a political context,” Sleiman???

    *Rai’s visit would be the first for a Maronite patriarch since Lebanon’s independence in 1943

    *Last year in an interview with Reuters, Rai described Assad’s Syria as “the closest thing to democracy in the Arab world.”

    *At a Sunday mass broadcast live on Syrian state television “Everything that is said and demanded in the name of what is called reform and human rights and democracy is not worth the blood spill of an innocent person,” said the 72-year-old patriarch.

  16. and I shall translate your introduction dear OTW too

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